The last few months has been a very emotional journey. There has been a lot of drama in finding my long lost family. Here I was for over 20 years thinking that no one in my family gave a damn, but I was totally wrong. A lot of the family weren’t even aware of the actual truth as to why I wasn’t at home. But things came out recently and a lot of people now understand what happened when I was a child.
A few months back I got my mother and sister back into my life, but that was short lived. Certain people caused nothing but drama and it got to the point where once again neither of us are on speaking terms. I totally wish that wasn’t the case, but I can’t change what happened and I have to get it through my thick skull that it wasn’t my fault either.
So I have now come to the conclusion that I will not have them in my life again. I don’t need the stress or drama from certain people. So I have now got my funeral plan in place which has my cousin down to take control upon my death. She is also being given strict written instructions on what is to happen for my funeral, burial and who is not welcome at my funeral and who is to have no input into what happens. These are not her wishes, they are mine and mine alone. It is what I need to do. If they don’t want to be apart of my life now, then they won’t be for eternity.
So for now, a new life begins. And this begins now!