So as I start writing this post it is currently 8.05pm on Wednesday night. And honestly, right now I have so much running through my head. I am starting to wonder if I am trying to change myself too much, too fast. Don’t get me wrong, these changes are what I totally want and no one is pushing me to change. This is for the first time, me pushing myself to change nearly everything in my life right now.
There are so many health problems, there is my HWS business, there is assisting in ROO, there is dealing with several Facebook pages (with one in particular recently taking off to where I have now nearly 17,000 followers), there is the gym and my doctors and specialists appt.’s and a lot of others things as well. I am really starting to wonder if I am taking on too much and if I can really keep it all going. These are all things I want to do and some really need to do to make sure I can start keeping active and doing the things that I want to do. I am putting myself first for a change, which for anyone that knows me is a damn massive thing as I usually always put myself last.
I know that I am now more determined than ever to get things in my life changed around. Like damn, just look back to the 9th May 2018, the day I was released from Mona Vale Hospital after my several-month stay and nearly losing my leg to where I am today. It is now 21 months and 3 days since I have been sleeping on the streets. I am no longer homeless and I can no longer call myself that because I am not and it is also a lifestyle that I do not wish to return too no matter how much I am struggling sometimes still now.
But at the same time as there have been so many damn changes over the last 21 months I can’t help but wonder if I am now taking on too much too quickly. It is really hard for me to explain this really, even in writing which is something that I am usually really good at doing. But for this, I am having trouble.
Oh well, that will do for now if I think of something else later I will add it to my next bloggie.
